I’m Greatness

To everyone who told me I wasn’t shit
Who asked me to leave
Who told me I didn’t belong
All you did was delay the inevitable
My divinity always shines through
And don’t worry I’m polytheistic in thought
Don’t feel threatened by my godliness
Embrace yours

The divinity within me
Frightened so many
Shit it even frightened Me
Poly Theoretically
Embedded deep
I’m heavenly blessed with intense eccentricities
Incapabilities escaping me
I know I kill myself so beautifully
Each breath is life and death
I choose both to be power
I choose to fill every hour
With life and love to fill a tower
I babel when I rattle off thoughts
Embattled with my gifts and curse
Why do you come to me with all your needs
Insanity, it seems my blessings be, coupled with that which is tin sans it’s tee
Phonetically at least
Sometimes I wish I can just be rattling off rhymes to pass the time and find dimes to build comfort and crime
But you always ask more
One more tour in this war for our collective conscious, our soul
Just waiting for the day I absorb into the earths core
Either through meditation or disintegration
My meds is ancient, and this is the greatest
What you’re witnessing is a compilation of constant revelations
Keep ignoring and watch as apocalypse X out all men
Me, I’m greatness

– Sobrevivente

What Matters

When I wake up will I see what I was meant to see
When I wake up will I be what was meant to be
Or will I be to worried about how I’m going to find something to eat?
Always ask me when I’m going add to them bones with some, meat/meet
With my people in my heart, I have little time for these treats
They tell me to be patient
It’ll all come in do/due rhyme
At least that’s what I heard, when the nouns and verbs converge and I merge them into memory, collectively collecting the, remedies for the system, oppressing me, perplexing the, rest of these, but I let them see my words are chemistry, alchemy, changing composition of what matters
 
-Sobreviviente

Reflections On Ego

It’s a difficult feeling when people view you as being transient and replaceable. Indoctrination in our societal structure seems to be coupled with this instinctual urge to be desired, to be favored, to be liked and loved.
We want to empower others but it’s painful when that empowerment leads to you having to step back and remove yourself from a place you felt valued and appreciated at one point. It’s another of life’s many ironies. We want to see others great but when their greatness exceeds their need for our assistance or guidance we are terrified. It’s a strike to our ego. At that point we need to decide which feelings are more important to us, their success or our desire to be needed.
I find that desire to be needed so egotistically driven. Human has the need to center itself in everything. Hence why we thought earth was the center of the universe for so long and killed defending that thought. Watching a movie I once heard a monk character say “our comfort is never more important than the comfort of another living creature, our life is never more important than the life of another living creature. How self centered would that be to think otherwise?”
I have learned that true love comes with the ability to let go. Even if the person you love resents you for it. If you know in your heart that the person is better off without your presence or if there is no longer space for you in that person’s life you must let go if you truly love them. You have done your part in empowering them to no longer need you. Now you must find the next steps in your path. Walking away brings you closer to the true love you feel for that person. It brings you closer to ridding yourself of ego. It brings you closer to freedom.
-Sobreviviente

Sobreviviente – What is in a Name

Sobreviviente is my nickname.  It is my writing name.  But honestly it has become more than that.  So I want to share with you all a little more about the name and what it means to me:

Sobre
On
About
On top of
Atop
Above
In
Concerning

Viviente
Living

Surviving is about living. Being above what people define living as. Getting in the essence of living. Always being on top of what it means to be living each and every moment. Always concern yourself with it. That’s what it means to survive.

Anytime you pretend you want to be free,
I hear them chanting my name
Sobre
So be
So me
So civil
So disobediently
– Sobreviviente

Simplicity = Beauty

DYRLAN (JUNE 4TH) 10 hours before kidney transplan: http://youtu.be/rBfNHzyKu44

I used to be impressed with the vast complexities of human existence.  If it was too simplistic I would deem it boring and unimportant.  Today I was truly touched and moved towards a new line of thinking.  Few things can be as beautiful as simplicity.

For those that don’t know the situation the video is of a fraternity brother of mine who I had never met but heard through another brother, Victor Caban Diaz, that he was in need of a kidney transplant and was facing financial hardship because of it.  As a group the local chapters decided to do all we could to raise money for the brother through various fund raising efforts.  As the Vice President overseeing the area I spearheaded this effort.  It all culminated with a simple but well planned event at the Miami Improv where Tony Rock performed.  We had almost 100 people in attendance from our group alone.  We raise only about $1000 that night of the total $10,000 that we raised for him.  But the impact of that event cannot be measured in money.  The message I received from Tania, Dyrlan’s wife the next day thanking me and telling me how happy he was thanks to that birthday celebration fundraiser planned by his brothers, really touched me.  Yet I still did not grasp the magnitude and impact of the event until watching this video.  It moved me beyond belief.  Most if not all of the pictures in the slide show were from that night and the fact that he took the time to specifically thank me for that singular act of kindness really spoke volumes that I could never measure.

He thanked me for my kindness but I could never thank Dyrlan and Lambda Theta Phi enough for bringing the best out of me and blessing me with the ability to show love to my brother in a way I never thought I could.  Something that simple the love for a brother = beauty.